index, middle and ring

Index finger

This is Thursday. I'm supposed to be whining complaining trashing dissing reviewing last night episode of DSDS. That thing comes in a word:

extremely dissappointingly excruciatingly painfully worthless!

That's not even a word. And I'm stretching out my right hand to show my index, middle and ring finger while I'm saying it, if you know what I mean. I didn't even know how worse things are gonna get. And I really can't think how the jury can sleep at night. Come on, you lot!! Get real!!

Bah!

Index and middle fingers

I should get something to eat or cook to eat. But the thing is, it's been snow-showering the whole day, and I'm at a friend's and I only have my keds with me. I don't wanna wet them and catch cold. So maybe I'll stay in and got starving.

Bah!

Index, middle, and ring fingers

Who is this gal? One word for you, babe: Drool!!

That's three.

personal sentiment (that word!)

I think these are three of the million reasons that I like National Board Review the most. We're just so clicked! Hmm.. clicking is not so last year, right?

post king-kong-watching rant

Current music in ear: Anything by Shayne Ward except his new single, LOL - watched movie: King Kong

Following up this occasion here, I write an entry in order to answer this entry made by Charlie. (Paling enak emang ngomentarin blognya Charlie. Topiknya selaluuu pas yang lagi ada di pikiran gue)

I quit the habit of sending out greetings cards like 10 years ago. Not because of lack the time, lack the budget, or lack the intention. But simply because lack of personal thingie.

I obsessively believe in bieourself. So greetings card from me must be: uniquely made by me, personally written by me, or selected properly for the person getting it. Each and every one of them. So it is clear how exhausting it is being me sending out greetings. In one of my close cirle's language: kecentilan.

The next burden is people keep complaining like, "Why did't I get one?", "Why are you sending that to her?" and so on, that made me say, "OK, you all won't get any. Ever. HUAHAHAHA.." I added the laugh just now. From that day on, except for my really close long friends, I never sends greetings anymore.

This year, I thought a bit about becoming a bit of a bit better person by maintaining personal relationships. Previously I couldn't care less about it. Sounds cruel, but it's the truth. So maybe sending out greetings can be a small step since there is this mass production thingie.

I started with knocking up a christmas electronic version card, which came out so girly so that I sent it only to people who's OK with getting it from me or for them. To almost all of them I said that it was mass-produced, and offer my apology for that.

One reply was read: Eventhough it was mass-produced, it is a good one, and how can it be mass produced if it got my name on it?

I replied, because I sent like 7 seven (yes, only seven, how pathetic) identical cards and only wrote the greetings.. He replied, it is NOT mass-produced. You wrote each and every single of them uniquely, right? I said, well, yes, because I felt soooo uncomfy of leaving it exactly the same. I even got so uncomfortable by having the same design for all of them.

We settled on the fact that it was not mass-produced. Because some part of it was not done in a three way that Charlie offered. Oh, as a bonus due to the difference in the greetings, of course I have to make the message one by one.

However, I disagree strongly by saying greetings in mailing lists is considered mass-produced. Sending it to mail-list is more like giving out an acceptance speech on Oscar night. It wasn't meant to be personally sent to someone. It is more like.. "Hi.. I'm wishing everyone here a merry christmas", unlike, "Hi.. I'm wishing you a very merry X-mas.." Get the idea?

If a message came to me and sounds like: "Hey, you! Merry X-mas and Happy New Year! Have a great one next year!" and I found out that it was sent by a send to all feature (which I mostly did), I seriously would not take it seriously, and never have the obligation to say thanks or reply.

That's why I rarely receive any congrats anyway. :)

my cousin vinnie (as if)

Current books read: something about photoshop that I can't name the title - expected TV program: DSDS, RTL, Mi. 21:15 - watched dvd: The Return of the King extended version

This is just so appropriate. I am a bit euphoric about something vintage nowadays. Sadly, my wardrobe is far far from anything vintage, so I only kept drooling at designs and reading materials.

The funny thing is, exactly when I started to consider vintage as a look, H&M, creating a so-called vintage line called Picked by H&M, is selling second-hand clothes and call that collection vintage. I took a look, some of them are vintage enough, but not cheap enough. Better hunting in a real flea market, methinks.

Anyway, today I spent the night chatting with one of my good friends, and surprise, unconsciously we were chatting about something so vintage. Santa Barbara soap opera. Oh. Dear. Lord. One topic of the soaps lead to another, and now I got some reading materials on hand.

But seriously.. Look at the hair, the outfit, the graphic, the plot of the story.. So eff-ing vintage!

Vintage (in the mean time) rules!

Enjoy the rest of the holiday..

Winter!

I swear to God, I will not use any winter dot com innuendos this year. OMG, what have I done??! Hehehe..

In a spirit of welcoming winter (that's yesterday, December 21st).

About two years ago, as I first arrived in Hamburg, and my first winter started, a friend of mine asked another friend a quite cute question: "How is the correct way to wear a scarf, actually?". The question is superbly cute, because for me, as a proud tropical person, having one scarf at home is just too many. And if having one is too many, how one supposed to know how to wear them?

I owned one, just because I had to buy one for my choir inauguration (and it was soon drenched to dirts, shit). But nevertheless, the european-style-wear is something that we want to wear at least once in a lifetime. That's why my choir insisted in wearing Mütze and scarf in the middle of rather cold summer, and I insisted to wear scarf as I and my high school buds visited a mountain in central Java whose name I'd forgotten.

Back to the question, to be honest, I came here with no clue either on how to wear a scarf. But it's just how fashion is. There is no correct and incorrect. I think, there's only fabulous and herrendous, after a trial and error process. That's what primping is for. Hello...? I don't know bout the real deal, though.

A recent campaign to support the national football team by T-Com (I really think it is a T-Com ad) took my full attention. Normally, the campaign is only showing peeps in line with the national team, while wearing the Trikot (team uniform), accompanied with words like, "Seien Sie dabei!" (Be there!) and so on.

This winter, they introduced an ad that kept me looking for minutes after I saw it the first time, simply because the people are wearing scarves! And they wear it in a 100 (hyperbolic) different ways! Oh, I hope I can show here how it is, but haven't been succeeding in finding the online version.

Until this moment though, I am still not sure whether it was campaign sponsored by T-Com or not, as there are LOTS of campaign like that here.

The funny thing is: This ad (the one that I saw) was put as a big large wide banner on a building nearby Hauptbahnhof. So you can imagine how I looked like looking at it and being captivated for some minutes. Gosh, what a dork!

So, a friend who was asking-the-question-but-I'm-sure-that-you-have-forgotten-already-that-you-asked-it, you can wear it differently. Try wearing one way each day. Go wintry!

now they're having "enough" exposure, and yet got booted off

Current books read: State of Fear, by Michael Crichton; Digital Photographer's Guide to Photoshop Elements - study reading: none, mate. It's holiday..

Honestly, my initial reaction was shocked. My second initial (if there is such a term) was "Damn drama!". My reaction now is "Am I being fooled?"

Actually, Didi was really in a danger tonight. After the publication shown in the capture. Remember Filip Trojovsky? Nope? OK. Plus, Didi performed not great. But seriously Daniel and Stephan performed so bad, that I even flipped the channel before they both finished their performance.

Sigh.. No one to root anymore from the boys.. Go Meri!!

Best performance: Hate to say it, but Nevio.
Worst performance: Daniel
Safest performance: Fabian
Best surprise: Didi chose difficult song "If You Don't Know Me by Now"

Dieter Bohlen quote of the week: ".. I think because I don't know the song.." to Daniel on his "Purest of Pain" spanglish version performance. More MTV, mate. And less NDR.
Drama queen of the week: Marco Schreyl when he said, "Tatsächlich!" Ja klar, Marco!
Wished he wasn't kicked off tonight: Fabian. Because he looked sooooo disappointed.

realitily really real

Current books read: State of Fear by Michael Crichton

I really really really realitily took a beating this past two weeks. And as I thought that I am the only one who's having it, I have to re-think those thoughts, as I read the welcome message in one of virtual communities out there: "Thank God! The Finale week is over!" If they were headlines that kept taking the air outta my lungs, they would sound more or less like this.

1. Cindy and the Car Curse. Survivor: Guatemala the Mayan Empire, finale minus one episode.

At final 5, Cindy is my second favorite to be the winner. I want Danni. But realitily, Danni and Cindy is so unlikely to be the final 2. Cindy won the car, she can get rid of it and the curse, and at the same time, she had the chance to give other 4 people a car. She didn't do it.

A heated debate on shoulda or shoulda not was sparked. Glad that Danni was still there.

2. Brenda Failed the Finals. The X Factor, semi final.

I thought Andy is a clear bootee in the semi final. However, Sharon was right. The four of them deserve to be in the final. They are all much better than other singing competition's final four I had ever witnessed. They are all talented, unique, style-wise polished, and just great. Brenda pulled out the lowest number of votes, and she somewhat blamed the teenage girls who (of course) voting for Shayne or Journey South.

3. Danni Wins Survivor 11. Survivor: Guatemala the Mayan Empire, finale.

Another favorite of mine wins their season edition of something. I am not bragging. I just like her. My least favorite person of the season was sitting in the final two. I simply thought that she was brought there to be easily defeated. And the result of the votes clearly showed it.

A heated (eventhough it was stupid) debate of whether she is a pawn (of course she is) was sparked.

4. Early Spoiler Proved Right Once Again. The Amazing Race: Family Edition, finale.

As I stated before, I will only watch some interesting episodes on this season of The Amazing Race. First because I was spoiled. Second because it was oh-so unbelievably boring. I should watch the finale though, because it will determine whether or not I will keep my promise to someone.

The spoiler was right. And the only right thing to do, is keeping my promise to someone. Sorry, ex-mate.

But I just realize that Wally Bransen is much more handsome that I remember. No wonder he got three really hot daughters..

5. Luca Kicked Out DSDS. Deutschland Sucht den Superstar, top 10 boys show.

Just read this entry.

6. Randal Rejects Rebecca. The Apprentice 4, finale.

Oh, nooo.. No no no.. After the nightmare of The Apprentice 2, any show that has Donald Trump actively participating is a big no no for me. But hearing that Randal is the best contestant the show ever had, and Rebecca is the most dedicated person there ever be, and The Apprentice is actually the reality show with the most brilliant concept there is, I gotta get some nostalgic moment when the finale was so scandalous.

Here's how it went. Donald Trump was clearly torn between hiring Randal or Rebecca. In the end, Randal came out as a winner judging from his previous performances, while Rebecca was proving everyone that she just deserved everything. What did the Donald do?

He hires Randal, and asked him, whether he should also hire Rebecca.

What??!

Come on, mate! I still clearly remember the night he fired Pamela (one of my favorites of second season) simply because the team lost $10 or something. In percentage, the team lost less than 1% of the income.

If the rules were clear for Pamela, why should it be different now for Rebecca? And furthermore, if he would have bent the rules, why should he ask Randal about it?

Controversy purpose? Simply can be..

7. Eight Messy Semi-finalists. DSDS, top 10 girls show.

Now I can remember why I was so hesitant about writing about the girls. It is simply because they are mediocre, even if being compared to the already mediocre guys. Except for Vanessa and Meri, they performed unpolished, amateurish, and completely utterly messy. I don't even care if that is not even a sentence. Because what they have given me, is totally not a performance.

Thank God, Meri was voted through. Her performance deserved a much better spot rather than cocky but ugly (performance, not the lass) Lena, shaky Carolina, average Anna-Maria, standard Sharyan, and corny Dascha.

Hrgh.

8. Shayne from Manchester Wins The X Factor. The X Factor, finale.

Hmm.. At least his first milestone got covered. Can't wait for his first album.

9. To Dieter Bohlen: What Did You Watch Before You Jury on DSDS?

Something like: "It can't get better than that.." Simon Cowell on Latoya London's week 1 performance on American Idol (AI) season 3 finals.

Something like: "Great way to start it off.." Randy Jackson on Vonzell Solomon's performance, on week 1 performance on AI 4 semi-finals.

Something like: "No-one can open the show better.." Dieter Bohlen on Nevio Passaro as he pulled his I-sound-like-Ronan-Keating act, as the first act of DSDS 3 semi-finals.

and ..

sorta: "I just can't believe that someone hasn't discovered you yet." Randy Jackson to Carrie Underwood after her week 1 AI 4 semi-finals performance.

sorta: "I'm confused that no-one had ever discovered you." Dieter Bohlen to Mike Leon Grosch after his week 1 DSDS 3 semi-finals performance.

and get this..

more or less: "In the second life, I wanna come back as your microphone." Simon Cowell to Amanda Avila after her week 1 AI 4 semi-finals performance.

more or less: "I wish I were your microphone." Dieter Bohlen to Meri Voskanian after her week 1 DSDS 3 semi-finals performance.

Four words, Dieter: It is getting old.

Phew.. Glad I got that all out of my chest. Now I can really chat about something real during christmas parties. Wait, I thought they were all called reality TV.. So they are real.. Hmm..

Go have an ass-kicking Christmas week, mate!

in my oh so very humble opinion, it's the combination of nervousity, technical problems, and lack of airtime

Current watched TV program: DSDS, of course

There are no secrets now that Gian-Luca (since yesterday he was only called Luca) was kicked out of last night's DSDS. Yes, he is my #1 favorite and got kicked out. :p

If I were voting and he were not my favorite, I also would have not been voting him to keep. He was terrible last night. TERRIBLE. And what can I say, he deserved it. He entered the stage with so many times touching his feed earphone, simply because he was nervous, or the feed was not working properly.

He started the song too early and was directly off-beat. And seeing the judges so far, they reacted more to off-beat than off-key. And I think, viewers would react the same way. Performance-wise, his voice still got the best tone and he was one of the few who sang on-key.

Too bad, he did the most fatal mistake.

Daniel Munoz, on the same case, also made a fatal mistake. Despite all of his uncomfortable moves and latino image, he chose a difficult rangy song How Deep is Your Love?. And he sucked in singing low notes. However, he was safe.

I wasn't surprised, though.
This brings to the fact that he, along with other safe contestants, has had enough airtime to secure himself in the hearts of viewers. The three bootees have actually the least airtime. Luca was shown singing once, Markus once, and Julian was never. Remember Melinda Lira, Aloha Mischeaux and Judd Harris? You got the point.. To his advantage, Daniel had been shown uncountably and even has a developing story with Carolina.

Overall, the show was ... dull. No-one really shone out, many of them were just imitations from the original version. Nevio (I really like bashing this lad) was a Ronan Keating wannabe. Stephan was Nick Carter (of BSB, if you're wondering. That's Backstreet Boys, if you're wondering) wannabe. Almost all of them played so so so very safe and preditable. And it's just getting boring after the 5th performance.

Except Tobias, no-one really had 100% control of their songs and performance. I think in average they only had 70% control. Everybody except Tobias and Didi was so nervous and uptight. None of them looked like having fun up there, and that made everything dull.

How to light up the show? By introducing a scandal of course. After being declared safe, the notary had to go up to the stage to correct Marco Schreyl that Markus was actually kicked out, and Stephan was actually (surprisingly to everyone including himself) safe. That's right. The host announced the result wrong. Boo!

Hahhh.. regardless...

Go Shayne!! Oops. He is in a different but alike show. :D

Best performance: Tobias
Worst performance: Gian-Luca
Safest performance: Nevio
Best surprise: Julian sounds great

Best of the bootee: Julian
Thank God he was kicked-off: Markus
Best possible drama queen title winner rather than Fabian: Stephan

a half an hour melancholy. huahahahah..

You know what? Sometimes when I have questions about life, I really don't know who to turn to to get answers. The sometimes in the beginning of the sentence relates to the having questions about life. Most of the times when it struck me, I will try to find the answers on my own, through any power that I have.

Sometimes the answers then fall directly on my lap. Sometimes it jumped out of a screen that I was watching. Sometimes it can be drawn from the characters that I was reading. Sometimes it blows through words uttered by a friend.

But regardless, it is only because that I am not that such a person. I mean questioning questions of life. Again, but, because I am a person, questions like that sooner or later will come out.

One of the biggest questions that I had (and it is answered, but altered most of the times) is "Is there any limitations of bieourself? I mean be yourself. :p" This questions bring some other chains of questions like "Is being yourself a selfish deed?". Or "How will you find someone who's trying to be someone that they're not?". Or "Is your life really only for you?".

At the moment, I always say that it is 100% times 100% (this kind of hyperbole gets you nowhere :D) OK to be yourself. I'm approaching it as a more take it or leave it attitude. But however, that is not exactly what I'm doing most of the time.

Hrrrhh..

This masquerade is getting older.

- Take a Bow, performed by Madonna.

top 10 boys

Current watched TV program: The X Factor

Since tomorrow they're performing, it's just about time that I at least doing what I can. Bitch about them. Hahaha.. So here they are, the top 10 boys of DSDS, in no particular order. I will try to keep it short, 5 sentences per contestant?

Fabian Behnisch



Got a good tone but weird runs and vibra. Always picked wrong songs. Singing messily. Not good enough. Drama queen. Bad.

Daniel Munoz



Eventhough he's through with a guitar, I'm glad that he was. Has a listenable pulled voice, must work on performance though. Not appealing enough both voice and person. Even so, I think he's the safest performer to go through. OK.

Didi Knoblauch



Great. Great. Great. Although image must be toned down a bit. My second favorite of the boys. Good.

Mike Leon Grosch



He's not as good as I thought he was. Even so, has great husky voice, great performance. Good.

Markus Derwall



Has good looks. Doesn't perform well. Screaming instead of singing (I'm not so sure though). Mediocre voice. Bad.

Gian-Luca Krykon



Best natural singer, I think. His voice reminds me a lot to Shane Westlife and/or Brian Backstreet Boys. But in a good way. And they both are the strongest singers in their bands. First favorite. Eventhough too rigid in performing. Good.

Nevio K Passaro



Got tired of this guy. The voice is too soft, and weak, and a lot of times got pitchy. almost crossing the line of being confident or cocky/fake. Very bad in singing a cappella. Oh, BTW, got through with a guitar. OK.

Julian Kasprzik



Hmm.. never shown on TV before. At least I haven't seen him. Dead curious though. N/A.

Tobias K Regner



I'm not a fan. He's different as he has rocker style. Good voice, but not good singing. Not clear what is he going to be. OK.

Stephan Darnstaedt



Hmm.. he's just weird.. He reminds me a lot of Daniel Küblbock. Horrible. But however lovable. Just like Mr. Küblbock. Bad.

Overall, no-one reeeaally special from this 10. There are some stronger singers, some stronger performers. But not one of them has the complete package. Rooting for Gian-Luca though. If only he could move a bit more. The mädchen will follow in the following days.

watch this face

He's gonna be big. At least I hope so.

... and then there were seventeen ...

Watched TV: Desperate Housewives, Season 2, Eps 9-10

You know, as I was a child, a teenager, and in my early twenties, I never had a favorite time-of-the-year.

I have a birthday in January, yes, but January hasn't been my favorite month. Indonesia has holidays somewhere in July-August. I had never been über-excited about those months.

But on TV, and from what I learned from other cultures, people kept pumping that December, or as they say holiday season, is actually the best time of the year. Because it may mean, Christmas is coming.

After I live in Europe for two years, I know exactly what my best time of the year is. It's the summer. It can be guaranteed that I can get the darker complexion that I always wanted, I can wear shorts, tees, shades, and thongs like all the time. The footwear, not the swimwear or the underwear. The swimwear or underwear.. well, maybe a couple of times. NOT!

But this year last week, summer got a real contender.

It began when as always I visited a friend to watch DSDS on TV and he said, "We have a present for you..." handing out my old paperbag that I got from an aromatheque (is that a word?) in Prague for buying his girlfriend a candle.

I always like presents so I just went.. "What's in there?" And then they said.. "DONT open it until tomorrow!"

In there, are (or were) 24 small gifts, wrapped, numbered from 1 to 24, meant to be opened from 1st to 24th December (Christmas Eve) a.k.a. Adventskalender. So far, the first seven are two decors, two snacks (I love snacks!), and three chocolate products (I love chocolate products even more).

I kept joking that they were supposed to be opened every hour, instead day. But I'll be a good boy and play by the rules. So I woke up every morning getting excited to the fact that I have to or will or may open another numbered package.

Until yesterday, as I woke up a bit later than I used to, one of my dorm-mate left me a message on my messenger. "Look to your shoes before you put them on." I was about to reply "Which ones?". And as I opened my walk-in wardrobe, there they were, another reason why people love December.

One thing only. I don't celebrate Christmas. But I still get to keep and enjoy the presents don't I?

Hands off fellas.. :)

post-midnight-post

Current books read: Shopaholic and Sister by Sophie Kinsella - expected TV program: DSDS; Recall 2 - watched dvd: Georges Bizet's Carmen

There was a time, when I was more or less like a parody of any TV show that I liked. Or a realization from lines from series, magazine articles, advertisements, radio show, movie, or something else. I talked to my monitor. TV monitor as I watched programs or computer monitor as I played games.

I've been out of that considered-as-bad habit for a year. A year and a half. It starts when I dont watch TV because I dont have one. And elevated while I watched movie more seldom and play less emotionally attached games. Starcraft for example. :)

But all the glory of screaming, talking, pouting, booing, "say what?"-ing to TVs are redecorating my life now. Thanks to DSDS and their I-still-cant-find-where-their-competence-lies jury.

Let's prove my point tomorrow. As it will show us how they picked the top 10 boys and gals.

PS: I am seriously having a problem. And this reeeeally creeps me out. I kept typing wrong. In chat or in anything. People don't notice it because as soon as it happened, I corrected them. What's wrongggggg??? As I writing this entry, I kept typing s as d. Weirrrdd...

Never too late. Even for AIDS to get you.

vier Quatschen

Current watched dvd: Taken eps 7 and 8. They're great!

1. Quatsch

Last night, I had the worst nightmare ever. EVER. Wanna know what it was? I dreamt that Paris Hilton and Nicole Richie made up, and their first performance together again was ...

Singing in EuroVision Song Contest 2006 in Greece. They represented France, and sang a song titled Paris is Partying. It was a surprise that wasn't sniffable by the media and all.

And that was my worst nightmare. EVER.

2. Quatsch

Talking about singing competition, I really think that this year Deutschland Sucht den Superstar (DSDS, German version of Pop Idol) is so very extremely completely super unbelievably UNFAIR. How come that some people got to bring a (or the) musical instrument to the audition, while some were still singing vocally naked?

One contestant even brought a SYNTHESIZER and performed accompanied by it AND GOT THROUGH. COME ON!!! It is not fair. Not fair. NOT FAIR. What I hate the most is that when they finished their performance, the judges will say.. "Ich bin total total berührt.." or "Es war super super super toll.." or "Ich fands ganz wirklich cool und du hast toll gemacht mit dem Gefühl.." Yuck. Really made me sick.


OK. I know that anyway in the end that they will be judged when they will perform accompanied anyway. But those comments were totally out of place. Did the judges understand that when there are no words can touch one's emotion, only music will be able to do the job? And that's what they (the contestant with music instrument) did.

What made me the sickest (that's not even a word..) is when they ended the performance with the strings of the guitar, and then the jury said, "Super super super gut gemacht." He?? Get outta town dear judges.

What I think is fair, is that if someone performed with an instrument, then the judges should ask them to sing once again a cappella. Then judge them now. Otherwise good luck in finding talented musician rather than a complete performer. Hmm.. more like Ebiet G. Ade. No offense to his fans.

Have nothing against the show. You know I really LOVE this idol thingie. So I'm still gonna watch it, and rooting for Mike from Köln who sang Love's Divine, Shary who sang Run to You, and some people that I don't remember their names.

Fabian who sang Can You Feel the Love Tonight? shouldn't have gotten through, the asian dancing teacher shouldn't have gotten through, the MC whose father was going to jail shouldn't have gotten through and a bunch of guitar strummer especially the one who's half italian and sang When You Say Nothing at All. He has a nice voice, but he shouldn't be allowed to audition in the first place.

BTW, I have only watched auditions to American Idol 3 and 4, and this DSDS audition. I have no other information if in other parts of the world accompanied performance is also allowed. A friend of mine spilled the beans that he thinks that it is not so in Indonesia.

3. Quatsch

Talking about American Idol, I think Carrie's moment of snooping into american's heart is on the third week semi final when she sang Because You Love Me. Not when she performed, but when Simon told her that she was looking a bit old-fashioned, and Carrie replied silently but heard, "I am.." and smiled. Aww Carrie.., everybody always loves charming old-fashioned gal who can sing.. But still, my favs to win were Vonzell and Anthony.

4. Quatsch

Talking about american idols, eventhough I don't like americans, I really really really look up to this person. He is on top of my list whose show I really want to watch and whom I wish to have a debate with. Only one problem. His show airs at 4 AM here in Germany. Gosh..

For me, he looks updatedly smart (kind of smartness that I am always looking for and want to be) and reading transcripts of his program, it was just.. a great show. And he has a tiny tie. Ah, you reality TV fans should know what I'm talking about.

I am determined I will at least see his program once, before 2005 ends.

That's the fourth. Welcome December..