tired old sleepy man

Phew.. Another two performances in a day. Eventhough they're not over the top and satisfying, I kept Wishing and hoping and thinking and praying, Planning and dreaming.. Heheheh..

All and all, no regrets whatsoever, will miss the rehearsal, though.. and just look for a brand new start and activities on Sunday (hint: work on Project Work? heheheh..).

Look at the title, and I'm heading back to sleep.

Oh, wait, gotta tell you that yesterday there was a storm of ideas in my brain. Fuck me. What does that mean? Let's see in a following day, whether this tired old sleepy man will or will not have a follow up on those.

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disappointment

You know what.. If I could, I would have killed myself.. Arrgghhh.. I know he was disappointed at me for sure, but he just didn't show it. And thankfully he was a really really really nice guy.. Can you imagine what will happen if he was other person than him?

I still can't believe I let him down. I'm so not in the mood (thanks to my illness) and neither was he.. But I didn't get my work done! Damnit!! Why is it so hard to resist the temptation of having fun when all you have to do is work work and work? Hmm..

Maybe I'm not a hard-worker. Maybe I'm tired. Maybe I'm sick. Maybe I'm neurotic. But for sure, I am sorry.

To my supervisor of my Project Work: I really am sorry.

catch a cold and friggin' coff

Sicko.. sick sick sicko..

Dang! I got a cold, and it was friggin cold. Got that nasal-y thing goin' on.. Duh.. And I had to still go to the rehearsals in this lousy condition.

Well, it's more or less OK, I think. I mean, going to the rehearsal should and definitely could be the remedies of this fuckin' sickness.

Anyway, not much doing in the past two-three days, but dealing with the evil take home test, and did it, and finished it (finally), and hopefully it will not be as bad as the other test that I had had earlier.

Speaking of test.. Gotta back to work to prepare materials for tomorrow's Besprechung. Ciao..

dull SUNday (isn't it ironic?)

What a dull Sunday!! Well, it's not so dull after all. I'm having again my rehearsal for the 18th of October. And it's pretty cool. Not cool cool, but okay.. After all, I am having a tiring Saturday all along.

But guess what! I'm a get sick, I think. Dang it! It's one of those Halzschmerzen that gives me itchy kind of feeling, and afraid that it will not go by by Wednesday. Now that's whack.. Because I'm having another rehearsal on Wednesday. Gosh..

Anyway, Waldo and Janne stopped by, and reminded be that I should work on the problem.. Tee hee hee.. Okay, I'll work on it this Monday, then.

Until then, I gotta rest, and eat so much.

Ow, BTW, I cooked! And it was pretty friggin delicious.. :) For a sick guy..

a small thing in the big world

This weekend, I again performed two performances (well, it's 4 actually, but 2 events) . First one, di tengah-tengah mall. Huahahaha.. Mallnya bagus sih.. Alstertal-Einkaufszentrum namanya. Sepanjang pertunjukan pertama, ada satu orang yang selalu bikin eye contact sama gue.. Duh.. terus pas beres tiba-tiba dong dia menghampiri dan dengan rapihnya ngomong "Sprechen Sie Deutsch?" dengan sukses gue bilang "Sehr bischen." Huahahaha.. Gak tau itu kalimat ada di bahasa Jerman atau nggak..

But anyway, he was interested in buying a Gong for himself at home.. Buat apa ya? Kayaknya yah cuman buat seneng-seneng aja. Anyway, 2 performance lain sangat menyenangkan. Yang terakhir dong.. ada 2 anak kecil yang ngajarin gue bahasa Jerman. Huahahaha.. Sip deh pokoknya. Pulang-pulang ditraktir makan lagi. Hehehe..

And then on Sunday, I performed in this museum. It turned out ternyata di Museum für Völkerkunde ada Tag der offenen Tür. Hmm.. coba gue tau lebih dulu, jadinya kan bisa ngundang khalayak buat dateng. Anyway, konsep acara menarik juga.. dan membuat gue berpikir..

Gilaaa.. gue bener-bener gak ada apa-apanya dibanding dunia yang luas banget ini. Terus lagi jadi mikir, kalo misalnya gue itu lahir di tengah-tengah suku Maori gitu misalnya. Terus gue gak kesentuh peradaban.. Mungkin gue ya hidup dengan leyeh-leyeh penuh sukacita kali ya.. Gak tau hecticnya dunia, malesnya konflik-konflik dan sebagainya dan sebagainya..

Hrrr.. but anyway, I love life sih, auf jeden Fall.. Hehehe..

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